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Heather by Jumei Heather by Jumei
Edit: I polished it a bit. You can see the before and after here: [link]

Sorry for being so inactive lately, I'm struggling with life (that sounds kind of cheezy). I don't know if I want to continue my career as an artist and I am worrying about every aspect I should probably not worry about :[ Depression doesn't help much either.

As some of you know, I started an online shop in decoration, accessories and jewelry: [link] It feels good taking my mind off drawing, I might keep doing this once it starts being profitable.

Anyway- have a sketch. I might work it out but I actually like the rough look...
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aeryael Featured By Owner May 30, 2015   Digital Artist
The shape of her against the background looks really beautiful!
Benaissa-Bendaoud Featured By Owner Nov 16, 2014   General Artist
Beautiful work
maybesis Featured By Owner Sep 27, 2013
Almost looks like Lana Del Rey ; v;
tushmonkey Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
She's so pretty O.O
AzureBoa Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
looks like Natalie Portman, great ;-)
ArdianaDA Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
This has such a warm presence its beautiful.i am just a teenager and my dream is to become an artist yet i know that os quite uncertain cause my parents dont support me at this.dont think bad they just want my i am struggling to halfway improve my hobby and keep it a bit longer.anwz i wish u luck it would be apitty if u would stop gifting the world with ur amazing art.
The-Average-Alex Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2013   Digital Artist
Hi there, your artwork has been featured in Feature this No#3
Jumei Featured By Owner Aug 14, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
deeMM Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013
well, you are a reference to me, I love your work. and I'm 30 years old, have no job, and start wondering the same things you do. Lack of skill, mostly. But we can overcome that by drawing more, specially drawing from life. But about giving up, what else other than drawing could i do? I could turn my back to illustration, but that would also make me unhappy... it would be like giving up talking...
Anyway, I had a job interview last week (for which i'm pretty sure i won't be called back) and they asked me for some reference illustrators i liked. These were the ones I chose: 
"James Jean

Shaun Tan

Odile van der Stap

Niroot Puttapipat"

Jumei Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I feel honored that you like my work, I hope they'll ask you for the job :)
sketcheth Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I appreciate the honesty in your description of this piece. It's kind of nice to know that other people struggle too. :)
There's a lot of wonderful color choices here, particularly the warmth of her nose. Beautiful work.
ChristenKojnokArt Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2013
Love how soft this is! :heart:
lou2209 Featured By Owner Jun 28, 2013  Student Digital Artist
oh wow this is gorgeous c:
NAN-EE Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013
Marmaladde Featured By Owner Jun 27, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
So soft and pretty :)
TRDLcomics Featured By Owner Jun 26, 2013  Professional Interface Designer
I cant stop staring at this piece.
silentruth Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2013
i loved the rough textures before, but smoothing out her features is the right call for such a soft piece. this is beautiful!
KmyeChan Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Very pretty :)
Sorry to read that you have been feeling under the water lately... Coping with the emotional up and downs of working as a professional artist is really difficult (and partly why I personally have decided not to walk that road anymore). Good luck figuring it all out - I hope it all works out for you. :)
Jumei Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Your work is amazing, I'm interested in hearing the details why you decided not to continue being a professional artist. Thanks for your kind response
KmyeChan Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you! Just PMed you about this. :)
orhide-ya Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
so nice:)
Keylly Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2013  Student Digital Artist
wow!! this is so beautiful!!! It reminds me of someone!
depression always helped me draw! in a way its a win win for when i'm happy or depressed.
juuhanna Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I haven't checked your shop aside from the mainpage, but are you selling your prints among the other items? That could be a way to get some money from them. :)
Jumei Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Why didn't you check the website instead of asking me?
juuhanna Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
Sorry, was in a hurry at the moment, things have been hectic. :)
Popgrafix Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I love the rough look too!
TheDivineMissM-94 Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
She's beautiful :love:

Sorry you're having a hard time, it's not right that an artist as amazing as you feels this way, I hope you feel better soon :hug:
Nazo-Kyu Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
the very fact that your feeling depressed and or not willing to continue your art career, is in fact the proof of your artistry,
create beautiful art from your depression, instead of feeling uneasy and not willing to do any art, draw from that emotion.

anyways, lovely piece of art.
antillanka Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013
She's so beautiful!! She reminds me of the mental image I had of a character of The house of the Spirits (it's a good book I read some years ago)... so delicate, sweet and kind of lost inside her own head...
malfunctioninghero Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Student General Artist
your art is beautiful <33 I really think you have enough skill to make a career out of it but I would never want you to work out of your comfort zone. Take as long as you need away from art, you can always have it to come back to :heart:
Sycorax-Snow Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
your art is beautiful and really inspiring - I really hope this is just a lull and that you'll get your inspiration to continue as an artist back. Of course, I'm sure you'll be awesome in whatever you choose regardless. Hope you start feeling better soon : )

The drawing is really elegant, I love how soft and romantic every stroke is.
tsuaii Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Professional
I feel I'm going through something similar, and I'm finding it painful to look at myself as an artist from a more objective, impersonal view—considering long term implications, possibility of success to failure, where I fit into the world, and more. But I think we need these kinds of things in our artistic lives, as a way to reach into ourselves and grow. People may worry about us, but only we know how to answer these personal questions, the ones that can sometimes break us completely. The spirit of the artist (or muse?) is strong-willed and will always prevail, if we allow it
Jumei Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
I am sorry to hear so, you're very talented. My main issue is that I enjoy drawing my own thing now and then but when it comes to professional work I feel like I don't have enough skill. I still struggle a lot with drawing and I haven't had very pleasant experiences concerning working with clients either. My whole inspiration was depleted and I didn't draw for months afterwards. I find it horrible to produce one drawing after another, it takes so much effort, mentally especially. And then I also worry about whether it will become profitable enough or not..
tsuaii Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Professional
I've had very similar thoughts and experiences as yours for the past several months, and I have yet to find a solution for it all, but I think I have an idea of where I want to be someday. These are the things I keep telling myself when I'm ready to give it all up...

Skill is a lifelong curve. Something I heard from James Jean, about his own work: "It will never be good enough."

Working with clients is a skill, too — like the extra, hidden thing you have to learn that no one told you about. It's just another part of the job though, like taxes and self-promotion. In the end, only the art matters.

The daily routine is the most difficult part of the career. I read a self-help book for artists once (ha) called The War of Art, and what I learned from it was this — putting in the time each day is an achievement in itself. Whatever it takes, even when it sometimes feels soulless,'s like the structure that keeps your art (life?) stable. It's okay to feel miserable, and sometimes you can even enjoy it, as melancholy as that may seem.

“People keep working in a freelance world because their work is good, because they are easy to get along with, and because they deliver the work on time. And you don’t even need all three. Two out of three is fine. People will tolerate how unpleasant you are if your work is good and you deliver it on time. People will forgive the lateness of your work if it is good and they like you. And you don’t have to be as good as everyone else if you’re on time and it’s always a pleasure to hear from you.” — Neil Gaiman, from this incredibly inspiring speech he gave once.

Think about your life as an artist both objectively and with emotion. Be critical, look at it from different angles. Take your time. I have a feeling things will work out in your favor if you do
AngelicRoyalty Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2013
I'm sorry to butt into this conversation but I have been struggling with the same issues as well. This is the first time I have met other artists with the same worries and fears that I have. Each day for me is sometimes a paralyzing struggle. I get so worried of how I want to present my art to others that I freeze up and can't draw anything at all.

Thank you for the recommendations and advice, I'm going to try and follow this. So far my goal has to draw one thing each day and work up from there.
tsuaii Featured By Owner Jun 25, 2013  Professional
Keep drawing and don't ever stop. The day you stop is the day it's all over.
aggielexi Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Hobbyist General Artist
I really like this style, and your jewelry is really pretty, especially the gatsby earrings. It's okay to take a break, even for cheesy things like life. Thanks for posting this
tonyob Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013  Professional General Artist
....ahhh Odile..... sorry that you're having a hard time..... the best I can help....... is to say that your art is very beautiful and I have always enjoyed each new post.
I truly admire you're talent....... and even if you walk away from the "career", you will alway remain an "artist" who has [is] inspired many.
Take care of the depression [ it's a nasty disease..... but like every other nasty disease there are people that can help.... you don't have to do it by yourself ]
Take care, many good wishes
PSOWILL Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2013
:) Do what you think will make you happy when it comes time to decide on what you want to do with your career. There's no shame in walking away if it helps makes you happy and release you from your burdens.
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